That i shouted at you without trying to think about things from your perspective.
That i was looking at my phone again instead of playing with you properly.
That i got mad when you spilt your drink.
That when you wouldn’t stop crying i got really angry at you.
That i get stressed when you don’t want to nap.
That i lose my patience when you are taking too long to get your shoes on.
That you had to repeat yourself because i just wasn’t listening.
That i grabbed your arm when you wouldn’t come with me
That every so often i want to just run away and escape.
That sometimes i just find you down right annoying!
You see i don’t want you to be scared of me – i don’t want to be a mad, shoutey mummy.
I don’t want you to feel bad if you don’t get always get things right – i don’t always get things right either.
I just need to take a step back and look at your faces and realise that i am so, so lucky to have you both in my life. Everything i gave up for you i would give up a million times over.
I just want you to know that you are loved unconditionally – always. I want you to know that and never ever doubt it x